Abortion

Abortion? Well I don’t think any woman should have an abortion. Just because you should to think about the kid because I think every baby deserves to have a life. For example if a girl gets rapped I don’t think any baby shouldn’t get a life because the girl got rapped .Because it’s not like the baby was the one rapping the girl and I don’t think any one should take any ones life. Let’s say that you didn’t get raped and you were the one to choose to have sex and now that you’re pregnant you want to have an abortion. Personally to me I don’t think that give you a reason to take a child’s life. If you are willing too take the risk of getting pregnant you should have a problem keeping the baby when you are pregnant.

To me a lot of people but not all think it is unfair that they are having a harder life because they are pregnant. Sometimes it’s hard for people to realize that they had the choice to have sex and to me that’s kind of choosing if you want to have a baby. So now that some of you life has been taken cause of getting pregnant or raped. Does that mean you take a life? By thinking by when you got raped you should take another child’s life does it make it right. It’s like that saying two wrongs don’t make a right.

Cant being rapped or just being pregnant give you the motivation to give your kid the life that you didn’t get cause of getting pregnant?

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What does it mean to be some one your not? Well I have been hiding my true self in the dark for so many years that I didn’t want to let it show. I still remember till this day I can still remember that day. Most of the reason I did it is because I lost my dad due to suicide in 2001 so it hurt me allot to show it. It was really hard for me to get along with anyone so I didn’t have any friends to hang out with so I turned to drugs.

I think that one of the biggest reasons of why I turned to drugs is because I didn’t want anyone to know how I really felt inside. People who do the same things that I did when I was at home now look like idiots to me. Is it really worth it? To me back then I thought it was worth it but now I look at it and I tell myself “that was so not worth doing drugs over.” Till this day it is still kind of hard for me to let the real me show not only because I keep all of my emotions held in. but because I’m afraid of what people will say about it to me.

I’m not kidding. How many of us teens are addicted to drugs? How many of us get locked up and taken out of home for them? That’s when I ask the same question is it really worth it. Because to me it was. But now look at me can you imagine me the way I am today 3 years ago. I can’t. Ever.

Suicide

Suicide is serious. It’s the wrong way to get away from your problems. I know a lot of people who chose that way of leaving there problems behind. It just leaves people confused and don’t know what to do. They try to blame them self’s for the loss and say they should have done something different.

In my experience I know how it feels to lose some one to suicide. It’s sad to think one of your friends would do something like that. Thinking I grew up with him I never thought he would be the one to do that. I always tried to figure out why they did it? What pushed them to the point of suicide?

I think about my friends that passed every night. To this day I still wonder why they did what they did. Over time we found out some of there problems. Thinking why couldn’t he just come to my house that night or why couldn’t I be there to stop him?

At least I know there safe know and always looking down on me. I still keep in touch with there families. We always share good memories of them and talk about all the good times we had together.

People who blame their problems on others

I don’t like people who blame there problems on others. Some people do that a lot whit out even seeing it. An example is some one is on drugs it’s hard to leave drugs but at the end is our choice. We are the ones hurting our self by using drug and blaming it on others. What do you think that by sitting down and smoking Meth your going to stop your parents from fighting? I say no! Life is hard, but hold on and be strong.

So next time your sitting there saying, I hate my parents when they fight that is why I use meth. Well why don’t you ask your self what is the rill reason that you do drugs. I used drugs because I liked them plus I didn’t have anything good in my life. I didn’t really want to make any thing of my life I was just stupid, I new that prison was my destiny. But I didn’t know what the future had in store for me.

The future brought me a son that I love very much. I am committed to be there for him till the end till I die. So no more drugs for me or blaming my problems on others I have respect for my son in many ways. He has respect for me and I always want to have my sons respect. I’m not going to blame no one for my problems and I’m going to keep my head up.

Suicide

My thoughts on suicide are that it’s personal, like it has to do with your emotions, feelings, and way you think. It does happen quite often in this world. Trust me, I have tried to commit suicide a couple of times. I have tried pulling the trigger. I have tried drowning myself.

I was in some bad times in my life. It was my first time trying it with the gun. I just got my 9mm and I put it to my head and I hesitated. I couldn’t do it. What stopped me was my girlfriend and my mom. I closed my eyes and I pictured their faces.

When I tried drowning myself I went boating but I didn’t go on the boat. I just swam, I would swim as far as I could in the middle of Red Fleet Lake, and then I would swim as deep as I could then just sit there. I would be so far down that I wouldn’t be able to swim up fast enough. I could never do it. I always saw my mom’s and my girlfriends face. I thought I was a screw up but their faces brought me up . I thank God everyday for them. Thank You!

I know a couple people that have tried and succeeded. My uncle is one of them. I was very close to him. I found out he hung himself in his shed. My aunt found him hanging in the middle of the shed. I miss him so much. Rest in Peace Jason.

Suicide in my opinion can be prevented. It’s up to the people that are thinking about it. In suicide you have a choice to live or die. I’m a perfect example, I prevented it.

In my opinion I don’t think anybody is to blame in suicide. It’s all personal thoughts and actions. People can add to it, but people can’t make suicide happen. Everybody has a choice to live in suicide. I just hope people make the right decision. Nobody should have to go through suicide or suicide in a family.

Truth be Told

Honesty. What is honesty? Honesty is being truthful and not lying to another person. Why is honesty important? To me it is important because when you are honest with a person they grow respect for you, and it will help build a strong relationship between you and that person. If you are not honest with a person they will see you as a dishonest person and have a hard time believing you. If you are trying to build a dishonest relation ship with someone it will be hard and pointless. That’s why I try to build strong and honest relationships.

For instance my cousin and I were hanging out one day and he tried to sneak out of his house to meet up with his girlfriend, come to find out his mom knew what was up so a so during dinner his mom started to talk to him about honesty and said to my cousin that he better not be sneaking out of the house. My cousin said “o no mom we aren’t going to sneak out. So when I and my cousin thought that his mom and dad were in bed we hopped out of the window. The bad part of that was that my aunt and uncle were sitting on the swing right around the corner from his bedroom. Ever since then my aunt stopped letting my cousin sleep in the basement. And on top of that she don’t trust my cousin and I. Ever since then I have tried my hardest to be a truthful person so that I can have peoples trust instead of them not trusting me and always having to watch me. To me it is just allot better than being babysat. Now that I am a truthful person I have got a lot more respect

Having a Child or Having an Abortion?

I think that an abortion is not worth the child’s life. I think that it is not fair to the child. I don’t think women should have to go through the pain and suffering of losing/ giving up their child to death. I think that instead you should put the child up for adoption.

My mother could not take care of me so she put me up for adoption. I think that she made a good decision I am happy with the family I am with. My little sister is adapted to.

Belief

God? Yeah I believe there is a God. And I also do believe that he doesn’t just sit back and watch. I think God comes into your life and helps you and guides you when you when you ask for help. But if you don’t want help God will wait for you to ask. And I think God does it that way because he knows that at some point you are going to look to him for help or Guidance.

Many times in my life I have been struggling with something and I tried to fix it myself without the help of others. I used to think that asking god for a miracle was a waste of my time, but as time went by and I got deeper and deeper into my problems and I had nothing else but God, I decided to take the risk of being disappointed if things didn’t get better. That time in my life things turned around for me. Maybe its just coincidences, maybe I just got lucky. Or maybe that was God giving me a hand and helping me get up on my feet again. It took me 6 years to finally realize that things happen for a reason. And that when God does something he has a purpose for doing it.

A couple years back when I was I was only young but understood things my brother zack past away. That right there was the event that changed everything for me. From that point on I didn’t want to have anything to do with the church. Everyday I would ask why God would take him. He never did anything wrong. And he just took him from are family like that. Without warning. Still to this day I have a hard time wondering why God would do such a thing. But ive come to realize that hes in a better place now. And he is watching over me and helping me get through my struggles.

So if I still believed that god just sat back and watched then I wouldn’t be where I am right now. This has helped me to grow. And I am at peace with Gods decision.

My Parents

My mom and dad are both Mexican my parents are not together no more. My dad has anger problems and drinks a lot. My mom left him when I was 13 he use to hit her that is why she left him. I think my mom was right to leave him. I mean who would like to live whit a person that treats you worse then a dog. I know I didn’t like my dad and I did hate him for all the time I lived whit him. Even when I didn’t live whit him no more I hated him till I had my kid. When I had my kid I saw how hard life could be and I understood how he felt. He had a job that paid him like 700 $ every two weeks and six kids. Now I could see what he went true but he still had no right to treat us the way he did.

My mom has her goods and bad things but mostly good I should say. My mom is not good at making choices. She is not so good at being a mom no more too. Before she was a really good mom and now she is more like a dad. She comes from work and is tired she doesn’t really care about what we do no more she don’t cook for us no more. She spends her time whit her boyfriend most of the time.

She has a lot of good things about her even if she makes bad choices. My mom doesn’t judge me for my bad choices. I’m thankful to her for giving me life and always being around when I need her. I thank her for not kicking me and chucky out on the street.

What does it mean to be a messed up friend?

Well have you ever had a friend that said that no matter what you did that he will always have your back. Well I have and he said over and over that he would always have my back no matter how hard the times get between us and I feel like a fool for believing he meant it and he really didn’t. I mean you know how a homie that tells you to your face that no matter what he is your true friend.

So when a fight breaks out and you are stuck in the middle of it and your homie comes along and just stands there while he watches you get jumped I mean it is pretty messed up when that happens. And you can’t see what you did for him/her to do that to you. So you sit there all alone in the dark alley of the ghetto just thinking to yourself why he /she did what they did to a good friend like you. That’s when I finally figured out that he’s not my true friend if he did what he did to me just to be a traitor and turn his back on me I mean that’s what start’s problems between two homie’s.

If your homie asks you to smoke some weed what would you say and what would you do??? I don’t even have to think about that one I will straight up tell them no because if they want me to smoke weed then they aren’t my true friends are they.

The Principal's Office

Have you ever been called to the principles office? I have many times. Weather good or bad its always a weird feeling. Once I step in to the office my palms start to sweat and I get the butterflies. As I sit down thinking some thing bad is going to happen.

I can follow rules that’s no problem. It’s just if I’m motivated to work I’ll work. If I’m not motivated then I’m not going to work. I don’t like school but I want to graduate. In order to do that I have to follow all rules and I can’t be sent to the principles office.

Actions or Words

So the question is are words or actions more powerful. Personally I think both of those as equal because it can work in both areas. It just depends on what type of setting you are in. Because if you have a person that actually will listen it makes it easier to persuade that person when you have someone that will listen. I would have to say it depends on what kind of setting you are in. Because when you compare they both have equal power it all about the setting you are in and what is happening. For example when your trying to get someone to not get high it takes words cause if you try to use actions either you take from him/or her they will get mad or they will go and get more. Then when you use actions is when someone dies because you can’t just say sorry cause that just isn’t enough you probably should give them a hug and show them how much you really care.

Momma

My parents are crazy; well my mom is. She is awesome, she is way short. She is the best mom anybody could ask for. She has red hair. My mom is 5’1 so she is short. I probably resemble my mom the most. I can’t stand my dad, but who cares. I can’t stand my dad because he doesn’t want me in his life. He told my brother and me that he wishes that we would get hit by a dump truck, and that we were both a mistake. I have just said “I’m not going to even worry bout him, if he don’t want me in his life then I don’t want him in mine.” I don’t need my dad, when I have my baby I’m going to be a better dad than him. He has taught me how not to raise and love my kids. He has taught me to not abandon my kids if they have some kind of problem, such as a drug problem. Also he has taught me to keep my kids close as possible unlike him.

Words Have Power

Yes I believe that words do have power, it affects our lives. They have more power to harm others in our lives. Harmful words are the only way to destroy others self-esteem. Putting others down is a way that a person builds themselves up. The other thing is that they would let you hurt them. It hurts you more than them sometimes. There was a time when I was in the seventh grade when I was in the hall and my friend and I started to put down others. I stopped and told my friend to stop so he turned around and punched me in the gut. That goes to show you how words can harm others.

Loyalty

I show my loyalty to my friends in many different ways. I always have their backs no matter what they got themselves in. I never talk bad to them or down to them. I am there to listen to them when they need to talk/or vent. Showing loyalty is a good trait because you can earn their respect and trust and to me that is an important thing to gain. I know also by showing my loyalty to my friend that they will do the same thing for me. Friends are your next closest thing to family so do all you can to keep your friendships from falling apart.

Not being loyal to your friends is a very rude thing do. Your friends are an essential part of your life, they help keep you company. For example, lying to your friends can result in a loss of trust. Another one is disrespecting your friends. Disrespecting your friends can cause a distance friendship or no friendship at all. Keeping friends is also a happy part of life, you will most likely be happier with friends than without.