Thursday, September 23, 2010

Suicide

My thoughts on suicide are that it’s personal, like it has to do with your emotions, feelings, and way you think. It does happen quite often in this world. Trust me, I have tried to commit suicide a couple of times. I have tried pulling the trigger. I have tried drowning myself.

I was in some bad times in my life. It was my first time trying it with the gun. I just got my 9mm and I put it to my head and I hesitated. I couldn’t do it. What stopped me was my girlfriend and my mom. I closed my eyes and I pictured their faces.

When I tried drowning myself I went boating but I didn’t go on the boat. I just swam, I would swim as far as I could in the middle of Red Fleet Lake, and then I would swim as deep as I could then just sit there. I would be so far down that I wouldn’t be able to swim up fast enough. I could never do it. I always saw my mom’s and my girlfriends face. I thought I was a screw up but their faces brought me up . I thank God everyday for them. Thank You!

I know a couple people that have tried and succeeded. My uncle is one of them. I was very close to him. I found out he hung himself in his shed. My aunt found him hanging in the middle of the shed. I miss him so much. Rest in Peace Jason.

Suicide in my opinion can be prevented. It’s up to the people that are thinking about it. In suicide you have a choice to live or die. I’m a perfect example, I prevented it.

In my opinion I don’t think anybody is to blame in suicide. It’s all personal thoughts and actions. People can add to it, but people can’t make suicide happen. Everybody has a choice to live in suicide. I just hope people make the right decision. Nobody should have to go through suicide or suicide in a family.

4 comments:

Kirra said...

I agree I'm sorry that you tried to do that, and i think its good that you didn't. I think you did a good job. Way to go!

Lesli Morris said...

I think it takes a lot of courage for you to admit to everyone that you have attempted suicide. At the same time, I think it is good that you are open about it. It can really help other students who may be struggling.

joe said...

great job bro keep up the good work

levi said...

I am really glad that you thinking about your girlfriend, and your mom stopped you from pulling that trigger. I mean look were your at now.You are almost out of this program,your in love with you girlfriend, you two are happy together,and you have now you have Bentley. I would also think about my family,my girl,and all the things that I have before doing something like that.