The only thing that I would think that would be worse than dying is loosing a child, or someone that is close to you, because you feel empty and like there is a big gapping whole right through you. Personal experiences that I have had that I personally think would be worse than dying is the day that my grandma died. The day that my grandma died is the day that my world pretty much depleted. From that day on my life hasn’t been the same because of the emptiness that I feel in my life. To me the feeling that I had was altogether worse than dying. But other than that I personally think that death is a gift if it peaceful. A peaceful death is a gift in my eyes because you’re moving on to a better life with nothing to worry about. Like the day that my grandma passed I could have a little peace of mind knowing that she wasn’t suffering from the infection that she got during chemotherapy and her lung cancer. People should be very appreciative when someone’s suffering is put to an end and move on to a better place. I miss my grandma tremendously but at the same time I am very happy that she doesn’t have to live a life of suffering, and hospitalization.
After a couple of my family members have died, I realized that a peaceful death is really a gift to you for another life of peace and no suffering. I guess you just overall need to take into consideration what your own personal thought on this subject is. Because after what I have been through I certainly took everything into consideration and gave it a little thought and I have come up the fact that I would rather die than loose a child or someone really close to me
Friday, October 29, 2010
Yes I’ve taken many things for granted in my life. I hate to admit it but I have a real problem with it I take every little thing I get for granted that’s why am here right now in a proctor family but am trying to fix that and get help. I know it sounds cliché but I think the biggest thing I take for granted is my family they have tried to be there and support me and help me with every problem and bad thing I have. Now that am away from my family I realize how much they love and care for me it makes me sad thinking about how I treated them, and the person I treated bad was the one who cared for me the most my mom.
When I go home the first thing am going to do is huge my mom and tell her how sorry I am for treating her the way I did and try to make changes because I know she is trying to help me and make a better person so am going to stop smoking and drinking well am going top try haha.
Another thing I take advantage of when I think about It is my freedom. Now that I have no freedom I realize how precious it is. I use to get up and just party now I cant and I use to be able to smoke and drink when ever I pleased but now I cant and its hard for me. I like to do my own thing and not have to worry about the trouble that id get in this proctor thing am in I have no freedom and I also have no privacy and I have to work extra hard for everything, iv never really had to earn anything either so this is new too me having to be appropriate and nice for the small things I usually just get by asking any old way.
How I remember not to take things for granted is by thinking of where I am now and how I don’t want to be here again and how ill do any thing and everything in my power not to be here again ever in my whole life. So what am trying to say is we all take things for granted and were all trying to change something about ourselves.
When I go home the first thing am going to do is huge my mom and tell her how sorry I am for treating her the way I did and try to make changes because I know she is trying to help me and make a better person so am going to stop smoking and drinking well am going top try haha.
Another thing I take advantage of when I think about It is my freedom. Now that I have no freedom I realize how precious it is. I use to get up and just party now I cant and I use to be able to smoke and drink when ever I pleased but now I cant and its hard for me. I like to do my own thing and not have to worry about the trouble that id get in this proctor thing am in I have no freedom and I also have no privacy and I have to work extra hard for everything, iv never really had to earn anything either so this is new too me having to be appropriate and nice for the small things I usually just get by asking any old way.
How I remember not to take things for granted is by thinking of where I am now and how I don’t want to be here again and how ill do any thing and everything in my power not to be here again ever in my whole life. So what am trying to say is we all take things for granted and were all trying to change something about ourselves.
My Last Words
My lasts words to my mom would be
that I will never forget her. That my life without her would be dumb and boring. I wouldn’t want any other mom but her cause she’s the only one that makes me happy she the only one that can make me smile the one that was always there when I needed her she never left me even thou I would do her wrong. She was still always there even thou I would mess up and make her feel bad and sad and even make her cry. I would give her a hug and say im sorry.
My lasts words to my sister would be
that I had fun with her always doing dumb stuff and even thou we always messed up and got in trouble that it was all fun and I wouldn’t have are time together any other way and that im gonna miss her a lot. I would tell her to not mess up no more to stay straight and that she needs to take care of my little brother and my mom and to help her so she’s alright to do good in life and not mess up as bad as me.
that I will never forget her. That my life without her would be dumb and boring. I wouldn’t want any other mom but her cause she’s the only one that makes me happy she the only one that can make me smile the one that was always there when I needed her she never left me even thou I would do her wrong. She was still always there even thou I would mess up and make her feel bad and sad and even make her cry. I would give her a hug and say im sorry.
My lasts words to my sister would be
that I had fun with her always doing dumb stuff and even thou we always messed up and got in trouble that it was all fun and I wouldn’t have are time together any other way and that im gonna miss her a lot. I would tell her to not mess up no more to stay straight and that she needs to take care of my little brother and my mom and to help her so she’s alright to do good in life and not mess up as bad as me.
Anything Worse than Dying?
There are a lot of different minds on this subject but really it depends on the person. With some people would rather die. Other people think that dying is the worst thing out there. To me it can go either way. It really depends on what type of situation you are in at the time.
Here are some examples. Well to me I think that living can be worse than dying. Because lets say that you are really connected to your family and you love them more than the world. Just imagine if your whole family died in a plane crash on there way to a family reunion. To me of course the kid doesn’t want to live ever again because all he loved is pretty much gone.
But there are other situations like that. I think that people mainly don’t want to live in that situation because they are afraid and don’t know how to approach life. It is because there family is gone they do not know what to do there scared to live life on there own. It would be hard.
This is hard for me to decide on whether dying is worse or not. But me I am more with the dying. Because I think it would be worse to die because even if you are in a really bad situation there is still a lot to live for. Like if your family died you can always make your own family and it doesn’t have to be a horrible life. You just need to hope back up on that horse and make it do what you want to do.
All I am trying to say is that there is so much more that is worth living for. I know how people feel when they are in that bad situation and they don’t like it. The thing is how ever bad someone’s life is that should make there life all bad especially when you don’t know how the future is going to be like.
Here are some examples. Well to me I think that living can be worse than dying. Because lets say that you are really connected to your family and you love them more than the world. Just imagine if your whole family died in a plane crash on there way to a family reunion. To me of course the kid doesn’t want to live ever again because all he loved is pretty much gone.
But there are other situations like that. I think that people mainly don’t want to live in that situation because they are afraid and don’t know how to approach life. It is because there family is gone they do not know what to do there scared to live life on there own. It would be hard.
This is hard for me to decide on whether dying is worse or not. But me I am more with the dying. Because I think it would be worse to die because even if you are in a really bad situation there is still a lot to live for. Like if your family died you can always make your own family and it doesn’t have to be a horrible life. You just need to hope back up on that horse and make it do what you want to do.
All I am trying to say is that there is so much more that is worth living for. I know how people feel when they are in that bad situation and they don’t like it. The thing is how ever bad someone’s life is that should make there life all bad especially when you don’t know how the future is going to be like.
Things that I take for granted
I use to take people in my life for granted. Every time I woke up I use to get sick of listening to my family talk about normal things that family’s talk about. I use to get sick of waking up every morning to change my son’s dipper with a bad attitude. I even took my job for granted I would go to work all mad. I didn’t ever stop to thank god for all the things he blessed me with. I had a job I was doing well I was not starving, I sometimes couldn’t pay the rent but I got it paid at the end. Till one day I went to work all mad and I was cooking burgers at Burger King then the shift manager got mad at me for taking orders and cooking. I got so mad because I was jut doing my job plus I was already angry. Then I lost my job and then I didn’t have a job. I just got angrier and that anger got me to do stupid stuff. From doing stupid things I got a lot of charges, for drunk driving, fighting, assault charges all kinds of them. Until one day that I went to a guy’s house and pimped slapped him. The cops came and took me in. From that day on I’ve missed my family very much. Especially my son, I missed changing his dipper even. I missed my noisy family and my ghetto house. I lived with a porter family that had a nice house it was quiet all the time. But I didn’t like it I missed my baby, the Mexican music that my mom use to listen to, how I use to bump music out loud all the time and my mom didn’t say nothing. In my porter home we didn’t even get to listen to music at all. I had to pretend to like my porter family when I didn’t. I felt so alone and lost but at the same time loved my mom and my son more then ever and my brothers and my sister. Now when I get in to a talk fight with my little brothers I say to my self that the ways they show me love.
Do you Believe that something can be worse than dying?
I believe that there are only a couple of things that are worse than dying. These things to me would have to be the worse things that could ever happen. My mom would die!!!! That would be devastating. YA NO!!! It would get me to the point of suicide. I wouldn’t know what to do. I’m sorry for anybody that has to deal with there mom dying. I terrified of my mom dying. She has got me through at least 18 years of my life. She is the one that gave me life. Thank you momma!
Another thing is losing my kid to anything. Have him taken away from me, like by the state, kidnapped, death anything. It would crush me. I would also think about suicide. There is nothing more important to me than my kid, my mom, and my brother, and his family.
These things are about it. There aren’t many things that I think are worse than dying. Well if my family would actually claim me there would be more. There should probably be more that is more important.
Another thing is losing my kid to anything. Have him taken away from me, like by the state, kidnapped, death anything. It would crush me. I would also think about suicide. There is nothing more important to me than my kid, my mom, and my brother, and his family.
These things are about it. There aren’t many things that I think are worse than dying. Well if my family would actually claim me there would be more. There should probably be more that is more important.
Things for granted
Have you ever taking things for granted? Well I have and to be honest I thought it was worth it because the things I did were okay for me. I thought it would only be once in a while but no. I think it’s how everybody sees it and karma can come back and things go worse then you want them to be. For example I took a lot of foe granted the court, my parents, case worker, school and I think about it now and I made many mistakes but everybody makes them. It started in about 8th grade I started with school teachers would give me the best help and I give didn’t care for it I wouldn’t go to school and when I did they would help me to bring up my grade, but then I would do it again.
My parents were very proud of me. Had a lot of trust but I lost it just by lying and taking for advantage their trust, I didn’t mean it but then after a while I just started doing it on purpose because I thought I had a reason to do it, but I guess I was wrong and not saying sorry it feels worst because I feel like if you cant move on feeling like that and stilling knowing that they still got your back.
I think that nothing bad is going to happen but no it will get you sooner or latter and the consequences are bigger but now like me just have to your best and try to move forward and make the best out of it so you can be where ever you would like to go and do good in life. And don’t let your mistakes keep you going.
My parents were very proud of me. Had a lot of trust but I lost it just by lying and taking for advantage their trust, I didn’t mean it but then after a while I just started doing it on purpose because I thought I had a reason to do it, but I guess I was wrong and not saying sorry it feels worst because I feel like if you cant move on feeling like that and stilling knowing that they still got your back.
I think that nothing bad is going to happen but no it will get you sooner or latter and the consequences are bigger but now like me just have to your best and try to move forward and make the best out of it so you can be where ever you would like to go and do good in life. And don’t let your mistakes keep you going.
Worse than dying
Do I think that something can be worse than dying? Yeah! I think there are lots of things worse than dying. Dying is a part of life and its going to happen at some time. I actually think the feeling that you have to feel after someone dies is worse than dying. I would rather die than have to deal with feeling of losing the person I love. That feeling would be absolutely unbearable. If I were to die than the people that love me would feel this feeling and they would know what feels worse than dying. Once you yourself die you don’t really get affected from it. So therefore things that happened why you were alive were worse than dying. But those people dealing with there loved ones death feels what it feels like to experience what’s worse than death. I think if you were dying and you were in so much pain that would be the worst part of death. At that point you want to die. When I think of myself dying it doesn’t scare me. I’ll die when my time comes. I actually kind of think that when you’re in the moment of about to die and your life flashes before your eyes is the scariest. Especially when you end up living through that scary moment.
This one time I was driven up to Studio 600 in Salt Lake City and the freeways were kind of icy. And we were going way fast on the freeway and we hit black ice. We started spinning and it felt like time was slowing down and I saw everything right there before my eyes. That was another thing worse than actually dying.
This one time I was driven up to Studio 600 in Salt Lake City and the freeways were kind of icy. And we were going way fast on the freeway and we hit black ice. We started spinning and it felt like time was slowing down and I saw everything right there before my eyes. That was another thing worse than actually dying.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Rumors
Rumors are spread all the time. Rumors can affect people in different ways. Like for instance if it is a good rumor it could give that person a boost of confidence or just flat out make that person happy. Bad rumors are hurtful to people and can cause them to be unconfident with them selves. You shouldn’t spread rumors in the first place. How would you feel if someone spread a rumor about you? Next time you feel like spreading rumors try to put your self in that person’s shoes and ask your self how you would feel and how it would affect that persons life. I personally think that rumors are a rude and inconsiderate. I would not want someone to spread rumors about me so I am pretty sure they feel the exact same way.
I try to encourage people to have confidence in them selves and not worry about what ether people think about or say about you. It is a really hurtful thing. I know that I would feel hurt and pissed. People treat others different because of some of the rumors being spread around. If everyone stops spreading rumors there will be more confidant people and a lot less people dealing with harassment or any physical or verbal abuse that is caused by spreading rumors. Be nice and respectful to others and stop the rumor spreading. It will help out in the long run, and also help people to build a strong friendly relationship with other people and a lot of people will be safe from other people that pick on them all because of rumors. Rumors are the root to all harassment or physical and verbal abuse. Respect one another and good things will happen to you and your peers and help you out as well.
I try to encourage people to have confidence in them selves and not worry about what ether people think about or say about you. It is a really hurtful thing. I know that I would feel hurt and pissed. People treat others different because of some of the rumors being spread around. If everyone stops spreading rumors there will be more confidant people and a lot less people dealing with harassment or any physical or verbal abuse that is caused by spreading rumors. Be nice and respectful to others and stop the rumor spreading. It will help out in the long run, and also help people to build a strong friendly relationship with other people and a lot of people will be safe from other people that pick on them all because of rumors. Rumors are the root to all harassment or physical and verbal abuse. Respect one another and good things will happen to you and your peers and help you out as well.
Attending a Funeral
Attending funerals are very imported to me because that’s the last time you are able to see your loved ones. I’ve attended many funerals. Every time I go to one I have a sad feeling because I won’t ever see that person again until I pass.
There’s been one time that I wasn’t able to attend five of my friends funerals. It was just resent they all passed in a car wreck in Ogden canyon. I was in cedar city when it happened. I got the news and rite away I tried to get a ride to Ogden but no luck.
I called there family’s and told them my situation and that I’m sorry that I couldn’t attend there funerals. After that I felt really sad and depressed and felt like I wasn’t able to do nothing.
After there funerals I moved up north and went to pay my respects.
There’s been one time that I wasn’t able to attend five of my friends funerals. It was just resent they all passed in a car wreck in Ogden canyon. I was in cedar city when it happened. I got the news and rite away I tried to get a ride to Ogden but no luck.
I called there family’s and told them my situation and that I’m sorry that I couldn’t attend there funerals. After that I felt really sad and depressed and felt like I wasn’t able to do nothing.
After there funerals I moved up north and went to pay my respects.
Rumors
Rumors spread because people like to talk. People like to compeer them self whit others. Most of the time we want to be better then the other person. you want to be the one with the cute girlfriend or boyfriend. You want to be the one getting all the attention. Even when a person is bad a lot of people start to talk, and don’t say no I just want to help. People that want to help don’t go around talking shit. People that want to spared rumors go around talking there shit because there jellies of the other person getting the attention for there bad behavior. Rumors and drama go together. Say for example a girl calls this other girl a bitch because she got whit the man she wanted. First of all calling her a bitch is making up a rumor, second of all how does she know she is a bitch? Third she is being too dramatic about it I mean come on is not the end of the world. I think rumors spared, spicily those that are untrue quickly because people have a lot of hate and jalousie in them. I say why can’t they just mind there own? Rumors are bad they could hurt people inside, make them feel bad about them self, they could sometimes even get some to commit suicide. Or it could make a person evil inside, you might be thinking about how funny the rumor that you made up about them is. When there thinking about killing you with out no one knowing about it. DON’T SPEED RUMORS YOUR BETER THEN THAT.
Arranged Marriages
There are a lot of advantages to arranged marriage. Such as you have that special day is all planned out and how you want it to turn out. It helps you with your plans like what time do you want it and that helps the people to know where it is going to be at. Or it lets you know how many people will be coming to the wedding and how many people will be eating. With the arrangements it will help a lot to keep it in order and how you want it and will give an idea of what it’s going to be like. It shows that you only have so much time to get the things you need to do done. You can get things prepared how you want to have them such as the food, desert, theme, music, and the sight of knowing that you in control.
When there are advantages there is always a disadvantage even if is as small as getting stuck in the rain. There is always that chance that you can get in a big fight before the wedding and cancel the wedding. Or there is that plan of planning for so many people and then ends up that you get more people there than you was expecting, then those people will be stuck with out food. Then if you are coming to the due date of the wedding and you’re not done with every thing it can hurt you because the wedding didn’t turn out how you wanted it to. But there are a lot of disadvantages to this cause you never really know how something like this will turn out.
If some one came up to me and asked me if I would have arranged marriage I would say yes. I think it’s because you have to think of all the disadvantages and the advantages and compare. Because to me overall the advantages will way over the disadvantages of the wedding. Plus I think you should think of the possibility of getting stuck in the rain, having to pay a lot, or not having enough time to do what needs to be done. So overall I would choose the choice to have an arranged marriage because I like to have things planned out.
When there are advantages there is always a disadvantage even if is as small as getting stuck in the rain. There is always that chance that you can get in a big fight before the wedding and cancel the wedding. Or there is that plan of planning for so many people and then ends up that you get more people there than you was expecting, then those people will be stuck with out food. Then if you are coming to the due date of the wedding and you’re not done with every thing it can hurt you because the wedding didn’t turn out how you wanted it to. But there are a lot of disadvantages to this cause you never really know how something like this will turn out.
If some one came up to me and asked me if I would have arranged marriage I would say yes. I think it’s because you have to think of all the disadvantages and the advantages and compare. Because to me overall the advantages will way over the disadvantages of the wedding. Plus I think you should think of the possibility of getting stuck in the rain, having to pay a lot, or not having enough time to do what needs to be done. So overall I would choose the choice to have an arranged marriage because I like to have things planned out.
Dang Rumors
I HATE RUMORS!!! Usually rumors that are untrue spread so quickly because people over exaggerate them. They tell everybody, but the truth people don’t necessarily care about the truth.
Rumors can affect individuals and communities in many different ways. For it to effect individuals it’s quite easy, it gets back to the person it started with and they are like, “I told the person I did tell not to tell,” or that’s not what happened or something of that nature. In communities it can start protest and fights and just stress. Like say a business said that they are thinking about teasing things down and people protest because they heard that they were going to tear it down for sure. Then that starts stuff that don’t need to be started.
Rumors are a total waste of my and everybody’s time. It hurts peoples feelings. It’s just stupid, why cause drama? It’s not worth it, just let it go. WHO CARES???? Defiantly not me, I got so much better things to do with my words and what I do with my life. Geez people need to grow up! How hard is it to be like cool, ok, and just forget about it? Not very hard!!!
People in my opinion need to be nice unless it’s absolutely a have to. Like say cheating, or talking crap then ya go for it. Of course I’m not going to tell people what to day, but I hope I can influence people to make right decisions.
Rumors can affect individuals and communities in many different ways. For it to effect individuals it’s quite easy, it gets back to the person it started with and they are like, “I told the person I did tell not to tell,” or that’s not what happened or something of that nature. In communities it can start protest and fights and just stress. Like say a business said that they are thinking about teasing things down and people protest because they heard that they were going to tear it down for sure. Then that starts stuff that don’t need to be started.
Rumors are a total waste of my and everybody’s time. It hurts peoples feelings. It’s just stupid, why cause drama? It’s not worth it, just let it go. WHO CARES???? Defiantly not me, I got so much better things to do with my words and what I do with my life. Geez people need to grow up! How hard is it to be like cool, ok, and just forget about it? Not very hard!!!
People in my opinion need to be nice unless it’s absolutely a have to. Like say cheating, or talking crap then ya go for it. Of course I’m not going to tell people what to day, but I hope I can influence people to make right decisions.
Arranged Marriages
Do you think that it is ok to have arranged marriages? I think that one of the main reasons of why people do it is because they really don’t have a lot of trust foe their kids. One of the benefits would be that if you marry some one and you don’t love him or her then you will soon grow to love him or her. I also believe that there are a lot of benefits and disadvantages to go along with arranged marriages. And one of the disadvantages is that if your child doesn’t seem to love the men or women that you choose for them to marry that is their fault not yours. Because they are not taking the time to get to know him or her in the first place and so it won’t last as long. Because that trust isn’t even there at all.
I think that it’s because my opinion has to be that it is not really worth losing respect from your kids. Not I’d rather let my children go out with any man or lady they want and marry any one of them they want instead of me choosing one for them and forcing them to marry that one person. To me it really messes with them and I know that it has to be really hard because when I was at home and I was dating my parents hated all the ladies that I dated. I really know how they felt in the old days. Now let’s say that you are in a relationship with your children is great I mean way great and then all of a sudden you force them into a relationship that you want them to be in. Guess what happens next? They end up saying they hate your guts and that they wish that they weren’t ever born. How does that make you feel? I can tell you it would make me feel really crappy if that happened to me and my kids.
I think that it’s because my opinion has to be that it is not really worth losing respect from your kids. Not I’d rather let my children go out with any man or lady they want and marry any one of them they want instead of me choosing one for them and forcing them to marry that one person. To me it really messes with them and I know that it has to be really hard because when I was at home and I was dating my parents hated all the ladies that I dated. I really know how they felt in the old days. Now let’s say that you are in a relationship with your children is great I mean way great and then all of a sudden you force them into a relationship that you want them to be in. Guess what happens next? They end up saying they hate your guts and that they wish that they weren’t ever born. How does that make you feel? I can tell you it would make me feel really crappy if that happened to me and my kids.
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